Posts tagged ‘Love’

July 3, 2013

Amen

by Teatart

‘Tis my heart that laughs
And sings the psalms of my disposition
For once I was lonely
Lost in my private maze of emotion
Consciously floating day from endless day
Seeking nought by cared devotion
I wallowed in my isolation
And sipped the goblet of bitterness
Seeing solely the reflection of sallowness
And its inverse of sorrow

‘Twas not my heart
A bed of roses
Sprinkled with thorns of poison
And decorated with the blood
Of those who dared to sit on its thorny throne?
Was it he who felt as king or jester
Daring to possess that which would be not possessed?
And yet it was you
Who washed away my fear
And stripped me of my thorny crown

I am naked and bare to your eyes
Uninhibited by your love
My heart to you eternal shall be
And to another I shan’t pray
For you have laid me open
Desperate for your caressing touch
Wanting nought but yourself –
Intertwined in you is my world,
My breath of life
AMEN.

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May 22, 2013

Footsteps

by Teatart

I reach out to you
The warmth of your skin
The feel of your lips
Soft and inviting against mine

I cling to your side
The security of your hands
Your fingers entwined in mine
My heart beating in my fingertips

I listen out for your voice
Melodic and inviting to my ears
Even and reassuring
Promising to keep the dark at bay

But you have gone
Withdrawn and departed
Any familiarity shared a mirage
Salt in the abrasions left behind

I retrace my footsteps to find you
But I realise that you were never there
Only an imaginary soul mate
Comforting, appeasing, consoling

I bury your memory
Fresh soil thrown on your grave
Sweet flowers planted at your feet
I am alone again.

~ Sherrie Dyer

April 24, 2013

Loving a narcissist

by Teatart

Tears and apologies
Seared hearts and dreams
The common foe that draws near
Is never as it seems

I stand by your side
As your lover and peer
But when the battle wages
I seem to become the enemy you fear

I know you are vulnerable and scared
Dealing with past hurt and pain
Choosing to fight against me
Becoming so self-centred and vain

Your actions are maiming and destroying
A fragile love that once was so pure
Aggrieving me has become your favourite hobby
Leaving our bond to each other shaken and unsure

Don’t you see how your actions scar my love?
How each day I withdraw from your touch?
I seek solace from your intolerance
And build up walls to protect me from such

Each day is becoming a little harder
To give myself fully to you
I know it’s not your fault you cannot love me
For the only one you need is you

Yet I have vowed to never leave you
On this rocky road I have chosen to travel
With each step I desire to become harder
Creating distance from what will be my ultimate unravel.

~ Sherrie Dyer

April 17, 2013

Crimson tides

by Teatart

Why do I allow you to hurt me?
I put up walls
Yet you break them down
Brick by brick
Cementing my trust
Paving a pathway to deceit

There are no windows to your soul
No shelter from the storm
You feign warmth and mercy
But your heart is cold and cruel
Solidified in stone
Unable to recognize or give love

As a spider spins a web to catch its prey
You thread an ornate tapestry of lies
Your tongue drips golden nectar
Smooth and sweet
A disguise for the bitter aftertaste
Left by your venomous poison

I feel drained, lost and alone
Carving my way through a maze of emotion
Despising my own weakness to resist
Your faux vulnerability
Your façade of brokenness
Mirroring that which I do not want to see

For I am broken too
Fragmented, cracked, fragile
Wanting to believe your love can set me free
Understanding that that can never be
Only one can mend this gaping wound
And only by His crimson love can I be washed clean.

~ Sherrie Dyer

March 15, 2013

Waiting on a broken heart

by Teatart

Where do broken hearts abide?
Who fixes them?
Who picks up the pieces?
Who applies the glue?

Is there hope of a cure?
A war has erupted within
Emotion raging against thought
A myriad of feelings, questions, guesses

A dark shadow has washed over me
I feel burdened with the debris
That has led me astray
Left stark and bare for the world to see

There is nothing more to give
My heart has been taken away
Weighted down and
Drowned at sea

Perhaps that’s where broken hearts go
To the ocean floor
In a place where not even
The light of day dare reach

I hope it will come back to me
One day, in some way
The chains will be broken
And the tide will bring it home

Until when, until then
I wait, I watch and I hope to see
Waiting for the day
You come back to me

~ Sherrie Dyer

March 5, 2013

A prayer to God

by Teatart

As my heart begins to bleed
I pray to you in earnest
that my voice you shall heed

I ask of you but nought
simply to listen to these words
and to guide me if you ought

I wallow in the loneliness to which I am prone …
but need I tell you this?
For it is to you, and you only, to which I shall these words own

I long and crave for companionship,
for warmth and laughter;
for I have known despair and hardship

She is desolate and cold
and hungry for all who are as I am;
and her prey in a grip of iron she does hold

So Dear Lord
I pray to you tonight
to endow upon me love which I can afford

To help me against those
who cannot understand what my true desires are,
that they one day will see …

You are almighty
you created me – my world
I beg you not to let it crumble around me.

By candlelight
I whisper to you this prayer
AMEN

~ Sherrie Dyer

February 28, 2013

Lust Lords

by Teatart

I feel your body
Naked skin against mine
Your heated touch
Engulfing my sense of security
I slip into the lustre of your eagerness
To clutch the virginity of my loyalty

Your lips press against mine
Your tongue flicking obstacles of passion
That marks the entrance to my soul’s slumber
An unspoken stop …
A startled yes
Delighting in the feel of your possession
Yet cringing from the sanity
That is our reality 

For we are despaired lovers –
Victims of our guilt
Yet warriors of our lust
Worshipping in the few hours of ardour
That personifies our intensity
Strangers in our unity
And lovers in our isolation.

February 14, 2013

Collision

by Teatart

English: Love heart

I’ve fallen in love with you
Slowly day by day
I didn’t see it coming
Or that my heart had gone astray

Love is such a fickle thing
We choose not with whom we share
We only know that when it strikes
We are sometimes worse for wear

While our life journeys are apart
And our paths as east to west
Somehow our destinies collided
The reason to which I cannot contest

So now a piece of my heart is yours
To do with as you will
I only ask one thing of you
To keep a memory of me still

~ Sherrie Dyer

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January 18, 2013

Used

by Teatart

I feel used
Thrown out like a piece of trash
Good enough one day
Insufficient the next

Of course I knew better
I knew who you were
But I allowed myself to believe
That somehow I was different

In my own desire to be loved
I opened myself up to abuse
And became merely a filler
For your own insecurities

So who should I be angry with?
Myself? You?
I know the answer
No matter how hard the truth

It’s me, it’s always been me

~ Sherrie Dyer