Posts tagged ‘freestyle poetry’

June 8, 2014

Revolution

by Teatart

Pardon me
I know nothing
Every word out of my mouth is jest

Say something
I would rather not
When treated with ridicule, rebuke and contempt

Dare not
I test your patience
My own mind is not requested in this place

Do as I say
Robotic
Programmed obedience is what is best

Following orders
Is what is called for
I’ve given up on being treated with respect

But in my heart
Is a rising blind rebellion
A revolution you unwittingly will get.

~ Sherrie Dyer ~

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September 13, 2013

The hunger

by Teatart

At times I lose myself
In the reverse conflict
Between love and hate,
Admiration and disdain

My hero the one minute
My adversary the next
Why I loved you
Could be easy to forget

I soothe my soreness
With pretty words
That reinforce my views
And righteously appoint me queen

But you have robbed me of that
Unsettling my perch and
Throwing me to the floor
Lest I overlook my imperfection

I am hungry for a few
Sweet sentiments
Sniffing the bare ground for
Crumbs of candied adulation

In happier times
My ribs were coated with fat
My tank filled to overflow
With love and respect

I have learnt the hard way
A touch is not always good
Bread is not always sustenance
And love is not always given without condition.

~ Sherrie Dyer

September 9, 2013

Prying Truths

by Teatart

Is the sky not sapphire for me
as it is for you?
But still – you see more.
“Behold” you command
but foolishly I see not.
I grasp …
but it is only air I touch,
flailing for balance
yet still unbalanced.
Is that not loss I saw
within the realms of your sight?
Proof?
Proof enough of thought?
My armour is weak
to you only do I give
yet I know not if you want me.
Do you see me as only a child
that is weak and ignorant?
Do you chortle behind sheltered panes
at my naivety and gullibility?
I know not.
It is only my inner soul
on a platter of polished silver
that I bare now.
Do you want me?
Weepingly – I know not.

~ Sherrie Dyer

August 14, 2013

Tomorrow

by Teatart

Where did the sun go?
It was here yesterday
It rose like normal
And set in a flame of colours

Yesterday
Its rays warmed my cool skin
Its brilliance
Left black dots before my eyes

But today
My world is in shadow
Cold, stark, dull
No light to draw the night away

The darkness amplifies my despair
Gives wings to my hopelessness
And claws to my rejection
It feeds the starving monster within

I hide behind closed doors
Praying that tomorrow,
Tomorrow you will be back
And the struggle will subside again

Tomorrow
Tomorrow
Tomorrow

~ Sherrie Dyer

August 7, 2013

Shadowland

by Teatart

In the silence that encumbers my heart
I see only your face
In the darkness that shadows my nights
I feel only your presence
But ‘tis distanced
Galaxies bearing the awayness of touch
Do you feel my thoughts?
Which ‘tis only of you –
Longing for your return, longing forth to you
Yet still I bleed
For it is my insecurities
That binds this book loosely.
Is it I that you burn for?
Banish these questions!
They haveth not place
But weak is he who ponders forth,
Thus salted is me
For ‘tween flame and ash I wonder
Driving my soul into that of frenzy
Banish these thoughts!
I haveth not time
I pray to you, highest Lord
Deliver him safely to the bosom of my love.

~ Sherrie Dyer

July 3, 2013

Amen

by Teatart

‘Tis my heart that laughs
And sings the psalms of my disposition
For once I was lonely
Lost in my private maze of emotion
Consciously floating day from endless day
Seeking nought by cared devotion
I wallowed in my isolation
And sipped the goblet of bitterness
Seeing solely the reflection of sallowness
And its inverse of sorrow

‘Twas not my heart
A bed of roses
Sprinkled with thorns of poison
And decorated with the blood
Of those who dared to sit on its thorny throne?
Was it he who felt as king or jester
Daring to possess that which would be not possessed?
And yet it was you
Who washed away my fear
And stripped me of my thorny crown

I am naked and bare to your eyes
Uninhibited by your love
My heart to you eternal shall be
And to another I shan’t pray
For you have laid me open
Desperate for your caressing touch
Wanting nought but yourself –
Intertwined in you is my world,
My breath of life
AMEN.

June 19, 2013

Eyes

by Teatart

I watch you, I feel you
I anticipate your arrival with bated breath
Exploding in tremulous clouds of pressure that fights against your presence
You feel me watching you
And I see you growing with each stare
Gaining confidence in each touch
Yet asking nought stability, wanting nothing more than I can give
Ha, how unselfish
What motive could you possible indulge in torturing my mind and soul?
I run, I hide
You search, you find
I cannot escape your will. Leave me alone
Yet silent pleas form conflicting powers of assumption
Burrowing funnels in my mind
Blasting away the misgivings that incessantly haunt me
You want more!
In full knowledge of my inability to give what you so patiently crave
My worthiness falls short of your perceptions, but still you lurk!
Creating depth in the shadows that already exist
I fight gallantly against the narcotics that bleed into my actions
Attempting to perceive justice in our wrongdoings
I fight, I lose
You win with proud ambitions
And I gradually lose myself in your desires.

~ Sherrie Dyer

May 22, 2013

Footsteps

by Teatart

I reach out to you
The warmth of your skin
The feel of your lips
Soft and inviting against mine

I cling to your side
The security of your hands
Your fingers entwined in mine
My heart beating in my fingertips

I listen out for your voice
Melodic and inviting to my ears
Even and reassuring
Promising to keep the dark at bay

But you have gone
Withdrawn and departed
Any familiarity shared a mirage
Salt in the abrasions left behind

I retrace my footsteps to find you
But I realise that you were never there
Only an imaginary soul mate
Comforting, appeasing, consoling

I bury your memory
Fresh soil thrown on your grave
Sweet flowers planted at your feet
I am alone again.

~ Sherrie Dyer

January 21, 2013

Heartache

by Teatart

How can I explain to you
that time stands still
when you are not near?
My heart beats in isolation,
A lonely drum tick on a darkened stage

Each breath is a pitiful agony
Every blink everlasting torture
My thoughts are not my own
My limbs refuse to move,
Withered, brittle and frozen

I hang onto a fine thread of hope
Frailly tethered to reality
Will you return to me?
When will you be by my side?
How long my love ‘til you are mine?

I need your touch to awaken this dormancy
Your kiss to restore my subsistence
Although we are elusive strangers
You hold fortress in my very core
And I cannot live without you

Please don’t leave me in limbo
With such remorse and yearning
I stand incomplete and broken,
Aching for your acceptance,
And longing to be made whole.

January 18, 2013

Used

by Teatart

I feel used
Thrown out like a piece of trash
Good enough one day
Insufficient the next

Of course I knew better
I knew who you were
But I allowed myself to believe
That somehow I was different

In my own desire to be loved
I opened myself up to abuse
And became merely a filler
For your own insecurities

So who should I be angry with?
Myself? You?
I know the answer
No matter how hard the truth

It’s me, it’s always been me

~ Sherrie Dyer